Once upon a time...
When I didn't have love for self
I allowed a boy to diminish my wealth...
Not wealth of the monetary kind but the wealth
of my love, my being, my family and my mind.
Not knowing any better... I allowed it go on
It started out subtly with words of control
what I was wearing and who I could talk to
I was his pawn...
Then the physical abuse started to take hold.
1 black eye became 2 my body he would beat and bruise
I was used as his foot stool and no longer amused.
Not realizing that love wasn't supposed to hurt
I thought he did these things out of love and not knowing how to show it
I didn't consider that I should have kept my own mind and know my own worth...
especially since women are taught to submit even if she was being mistreated and getting hit.
Already being of the mindset that no one could love me
It was easy to fall into his trap because he reiterated my feelings.
Believe it or not the words hit harder than a fist ever could
Emotional baggage goes on through the years keeping you from ever
seeing yourself or the qualities you possess as good.
That time is gone now...
that girl no longer exists
nor does she dwell within I or me...
She has since moved on and I am
Perfectly Imperfect "Juisee Da' Queen"
I now know how to love me...
I've found in myself the treasure,
beauty and strength that others see.
It was a learning process which wasn't easy at all
On my journey I tripped sometimes would even stumble and fall.
Yet time and again I picked myself up and dusted off my clothes now....
"THROUGH IT ALL I REMAIN A ROSE"!!!
I know that I am the Queen God Created me to be
I will accept nothing less than... HONOR and RESPECT
from any man who chooses to take the
"JOURNEY WITH JUISEE DA' QUEEN".
Juisee Da' Queen
05/19/2008
5:47 P.M.
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Posted By: TaNisha Gray Juisee Da Queen
Sunday, October 12th 2008 at 10:03AM
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