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Sitting here in confusion debating with the confliction of past and present, how do I divide the two? When do you let what has died lie, and let the present represent it self and be the focus of today.

I've been pained my heart has been broken I wear the fabric of worn and misused. I want to trust, I want to need to love but cant see pass the misery thats haunts me. My mind just won't let me be, trying to sleep lossing and turning from the nightmares; the pain of hurt keep taunting me.

How do i get pass the others ones mistakes? How do i allow the next ones in and pass the guarded gate? How do I erase oartial of myself so I can begin to breath? How do I heal a wound with scar tissue that fester from the slightness of touch?

These are the questions I ask myself right before bed, this is what tugs at me in my head. Why can't I just lay down and close my eyes? How do I or should I just pray to God and say "Please take this pain from me, please set me free"

You know what? I just realize! I have yet to cry...How do I unchain these shackles so the tears can flow from me eyes....HOW DO I....



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Wednesday, November 19th 2008 at 3:15PM
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Very deep
Wednesday, November 19th 2008 at 3:36PM
Emmanuel Brown
You just did. We often forget that God knows our heart and our pains just like He knows our joys.

Moving away from pain is an emotional decision and it seems like you made it. What must be done now is to allow it to pass unchained by "if's and how's." That is because each time we wonder "if" or "how" we chain ourselves to the mental stronghold of turning it over in our minds one more time looking for an escape we can reasonwith.

When we surrender totally to God or our Higher Power, we let those chains fall to the wayside. This is much easier said than done so I must offer personal experience that when we do, it happens when we are not waiting, watching, prepared to catch it and flip it around yet one more time.

Today, it is my prayer that you arrive at a place of peace. That will require letting tears go when they brim our eyes and let our heart hurt knowing that God will hold it for us.

Peace and love, my friend...
Friday, November 21st 2008 at 9:10PM
agnes levine
Such a heartfelt scribe...
I'm in agreement with Agnes.
You shared your feelings by writing them which also is a release a way of letting go and breaking the chains that bound you from feeling freedom.
So often we hold on to past hurts and anger from what someone else has done to us and those people move on with their lives and for the most part think nothing of what they've done to our souls, personalities, willingness to trust others and accept them into our lives.
You have to do it for you; you have to
"Let go and let God"!
If you don't you only keep yourself in bondage from living the loving free to be you life that God means for you to live.
I'm not saying you won't have hurts, things won't go wrong but there is life after hurt and a freedom that is uncharted.

Blessings to you...
(((HUGS)))

Sunday, November 23rd 2008 at 4:52AM
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